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Promiss me

Im In Love, Again

He allegedly fell for me
through an open window
Cracked his chest open
to reveal his heart
still skeptic of my intentions
he made me swear
that I would always be there
I will always be here

Oh I'm in love
Again, again
And you may call me tomorrow my friend, yes
You may kiss me again and again
I'll hold on tight

I climbed upon his shoulders
And laughed until I cried
The view and I collide
To see this through his eyes
We never looked so pretty
Never seemed so real
I let go of myself now
And tell him how I feel

Cause I'm in love again, again
And you may call me tomorrow my friend, yes
You may kiss me again and again
I'll hold on tight

So I let go of myself now
And tell him how I feel
Cause I'm in love again, again
And you may call me tomorrow my friend, yes
You may kiss me again and again
I'll hold on tight

I'm in love again, again
And you may call me tomorrow my friend, yes
You may kiss me again and again

I'll hold on tight

I'll hold on tight

I'll hold on tight

Smile

Can someone hit the smile of my face..?
Cause I can't seem to get rid of it..

Is it a sign?

Oja natuurlijk.. Net op het moment dat je hard wilt gaan leren gaan er allemaal mensen met je kletsen..

Is dit een teken?

And It's All Because Of You..

Oh my fucking god I almost fucking fainted..

Presenntsss!!

I LOVE the bag I got for Christmas!
(Though.. I told my parents myself I wanted this bag..)
I love it! =D

It's time!

Merry Christmas everyone!!
Happy holidays!
I hope everyone has a great christmas and that there's good fortune in the year coming up..

I love you all!

xXx - Me <3

Chocolates

He bought me chocolates..

How sweet is that?!

And I thought I couldn't feel any better with someone as I did with "him"..

Nooo!

Dammit! No Glee till february!

How Deep Is Your Love..?

I think I'm in love..

I saw him again today and it was just great!

He constantly manages to make me laugh, and it just feels good to be around him..

I don't know how to explain it, but it just felt good..
And when I'm in his arms I just feel like sleeping, so comfortable am I around him..
He said so himself as well xD
He would sleep like a baby if I ever slept beside him =]

 And somehow he knows exactly where and how to hold me..!

I really do feel good when I'm in his arms..

And he keeps saying how beautiful I am and what's so lovely about me.. 

He's so goofy, just thinking about him already makes me laugh xD

And we're probably moving pretty fast.. (Sounds familiar..)

But we're trying to keep the speed down..

Pretty hard to do though.. 

Damn I can't wait to see him!! 

And it's so cute, he somehow seems very proud to "have me", and now he can't stop telling everybody about me and that I'm his and stuff like that.. Thought that was really sweet 0=]

Darn it that our schedules just don't fit..

Promissed pictures

I thought it might be time to upload some promissed pictures ;)

A picture took while touristing Utrecht by night on my "Date" (A)

 Now some pictures of my Christmas decorations! =D

This one sings.. seriously it's awesome!

This is what the label in a dress I recently bought says. I thought it was so cool!
"How beautiful you are, now you love me!"

 And tadaa! My surprise for Sinterklaas!

Pretty Pictures

Am I in love..?

Why do I feel so sad about the fact I won't see him till after christmas?

Already..?

He took these pictures when we went touristing through Utrecht last Sunday =]

Losing my status!

He is such an amazing kisser..
Oh my gosh.. 

I had sooo much fun this weekend!

It was all so easy and.. normal..?

He's so sweet and funny! 

All we did was walk around Utrecht, take some pictures, drink some hot choco and a beer xD, had snowfights, had idiotic laughs, sang while walking through the streets, we shopped, we kissed.. 

He's so mature compared to "Him"..

I can't wait to see him again!
Which probably won't be till after christmas =[

I guess this means I'm not single anymore..?

He called me baby..

...

I had forgotten what it was like to be kissed..

What to wear?!

Is it weird that I don't have stress about what to wear?


Maybe It'll come later..

Hope not..

Date

I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date I've just been asked on a date

It's already tomorrow evening..

O-M-G

Rusty Flirting Skills

Oh my god the profits you can get from having very rusty flirting skills o_O

I could just SCREAM right now but I wouldn't know what to scream!!!!

I'll tell later is just cant right now..

REALLY cant..!!!!

Too much hay on my fork.. (Hihi!)

Okay..
So maayyybeee I overastemated myself a bit..
And so maaayyybbeee I'm paying the price for it now..

Does that make me regret my choices?

This won't change a thing..

I asked him..

Didn't get much further though..

Still I talked to him.. sort of.. online..

Don't think that's going to change anything though..

Feeling dissapointed..?

Stressssssss

Oh my gosh.. Im stressing out!

I'm doing this big research task, which has to become a whole report or something.. For school..

And I've gotten to this question, and I REALLY don't understand it..

And the only one who's online from my class, and I can ask about it, is him..

Should I ask him?
Should I just figure it out myself?
Should I just ask somebody else and hope they understand it?

AARGH I NEED TO FINISH THIS TONIGHT!!

I hate it when plans don't go according to plan.. 

Fucking School

I hope I'll be able to enjoy my christmasholiday with all this stress and learning for some major big important exams JUST AFTER the holidays.. 

This sucks..
This holiday is going to suck.. 

I hate school for doing this to us, theyre out of their bloody minds!
They scheduled three, THREE really big tests the first week of school after the holidays!
NOOOOO!!

I'm totally stressing out..
Im not going to be able to enjoy the holidays for a single minute.. 

I think I might cry again just like 2 years ago for my economy exam..

It's A Hard Candy Christmas

Hey, maybe I'll dye my hair
Maybe I'll move somewhere
Maybe I'll get a car
Maybe I'll drive so far
They'll all lose track
Me, I'll bounce right back 

Maybe I'll sleep real late
Maybe I'll lose some weight
Maybe I'll clear my junk
Maybe I'll just get drunk on apple wine
Me, I'll be just 

Fine and Dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down 

I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow get me way down 

Hey, maybe I'll learn to sew
Maybe I'll just lie low
Maybe I'll hit the bars
Maybe I'll count the stars until dawn
Me, I will go on 

Maybe I'll settle down
Maybe I'll just leave town
Maybe I'll have some fun
Maybe I'll meet someone
And make him mine
Me, I'll be just 

Fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down 

I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down

I'll be fine and dandy

Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down 

'Cause I'll be fine
(I'll be fine)
Oh, I'll be fine

Now what?

6 months..

A Window To The Past

Sometimes lonelyness can teach you great things.
But right now I wish it gone.

This Harry Potter soundtrack accomplishes to hypnotise me everytime..

A few days ago I talked to the girlfriend of a boy who used to be one of His best friends..
It felt weird to talk to someone from "that time"..

She didn't tell me much good..
I didn't like that..


P.S. The original song is much prettier!
You should Download it! A window to the past - John Williams
HE ROCKS! Well no.. Cause he's a classical composer..

Like it couldnt get any worse..

Im alive..

But how..

My throat now not only "just" hurting..
Ive also finally lost my voice.. 

Thank you C1000!

NO freaking WAY!

Dammit you bastard!
Hes making me work tonight!
HES MAKING ME WORK!

AARGH!

Its moments like these I miss him the most.. He somehow did sometimes take some of the weight off me when I was angry about things..

Bastard..

It sucks when you need to have a replacement for your work and noone is available..

It sucks even more when youre sick and you need to find a replacement for youself and your boss is a hardcore cold-ass.. 

Dammit..

Note to self

Note to self; Stop reading His MSN-history..

No really, dont

Up side, Down side

Up side.
I think the slimywimy stuff in my throat is coming lose.
WHICH MEANS; the end is in sight.

WHOOEHAAA!!!

Down side

My back now hurts so bad from coughing I can hardly sit or stand straight..

Im having a 'planned-sick-day'

I really need to get up to my strengths, I cant be ill this week.
So I stayed home.
Going to call in sick for work to.. 

Like they could use someone who just coughs every 5 seconds..

Sucks

After two hours I finally got my computer to work..

This is getting really annoying..

Im really getting sick of being sick now =[

its already going on for about 3 weeks!
And my head, neck, back and belly hurts when I cough..
Whats next?

This really needs to end soon,

Im getting really depressed now..

I WANT A BOY!

Whos volunteering?

Scores

Scores for this years Sinterklaas;

4 Chocolate letters

1 bag of bath-pearls

A heat-pillow

A Hair-clip-thingy

A Christmas ornament

A Christmas garlant

A Clinique parfume pack (Parfume and bodylotion)

2 nailpolishes
A glittyglamoury pen
Bath salt
A mini bath-sponge
A mini hand and feet brush
A thingy.. I don't really know what it is exactly.. 

Sinterklaas

Sinterklaas!! Yeaahh!!

I will post pictures of this years surprise when I feel like it..

Deal with it..

What-Why-How-When

Do you think one day men can fly like a bird? Litterly like a bird?
What does love mean?

When is a friend a true friend?
Why can't some things last forever?
Why do we feel pain?
Why do we cry when we're sad?

What is laughter?

How do you know you've found something real?
When can you believe in something?
When do you know you've got to keep holding on?

When do you know you have to let go?
Why are there bad choices?
Why are there two words for the same thing?

What does a wink mean? Really mean.

Why do people die?
Why do people leave?

Why is it so hard to listen to your heart?

Why is it so hard to make the right choices is?
Why is it so hard to be strong?
Why do we need to learn?
Why do we grow bored?

Why do you feel lonely?
Why isn't easy to be lonely?

Why do we feel insecure?
Why do we want people to like us?

Why do we celebrate people who don't excist?
Why do we give presents?

How can you believe in somebody that there's no prove of?

How can you keep faith when everything goes bad?
How can you learn to stand on your own feet?
Why is it hard to make true friends?
What is a true friend?

When do you love somebody?
When do you know it's time to let go of somebody?
When do you know it's time to fight?

When do you know it's okay to break down?
Why do you want to stay strong in front of people you care about?
How do you show people you care about them?
How can you tell somebody you love them and make them believe you?
How can you convince yourself of something?

How can you hear voices in your head?
How can you feel like two persons in one body?
What is pure?
Why can doing something feel wrong?

Why is it so hard to stay optimistic?

Why to bad things happen to good people, and good things happen to bad people?

Why am I alive?

For what am I alive?
Will I die happy at the end of my life?

If I'd die now, would I die happy..?

What is happy? 

Thats a good start!

Haha xD 3 days into December and already 7 posts xD





The medicine is disgusting..

I get knocked down

Oh.. I love the sight of a filled op candy-pot.. 

I went to the pharmecist today.

Because I cough so much and it hurts!
So now I have to take this slimy-medicine-thingy 4 times a day!
Whoops!
I hope it tastes good..
Bit stupid though..
The woman at the pharmecist acted like it was my own fault I got sick..
Like I did it on purpose!
Left me a bit sad..
But somehow nothing can get me down today..

I get knocked down, but I get up again!
Nothing's ever gonna get me down!

We might have a beginning..

I had a ini-mini conversation with "him" today!

At the end of classes I was walking towards the exit alone. "He" walked behind me with some friends.

One if his friends, who I've been really bonding with, asked me if I weren't going to wear my bonnet, hat, thing..

I said no because I didn't feel like searching for it in my bag and my dad would Pick me up soon with his car.

So "he" laughed and said I got my business taken care of. So I smiled back and agreed. Then he said if he was lucky he could lift with a trucker..

So I laughed and walked on.

I could've talked more to him if I wanted, if I grabbed the chance.. but I was to much in awe that he talked to me, and to much panicking about what to say back!

But this is a good start! It might be the start we needed..

He's not a jerk..

Let's just run!

Is it the look in your eyes?
Or is it these dancing juves..

Okay! Flirting's over..

Today this guy came at my cash register.
I've seen him loads of times.
Cause he's been at my cash register before!
And it's always been easy, and funny, and very flirtatious between us.
Even before "Him".. And during.. 

But he didn't come for a long time, and then I saw him with his girlfriend.
So I was like.. OKAY! Flirting is over..
But this Saturday he came by ALONE! It was like all over easy funny and flirtatious again..

And he came by today.. Well.. I'll just write it down exactly.
He saw I was shaking from the cold, and I was sitting at the cash register nearest to the door.
So he asked; "Are you cold from sitting near the door?"

So I replied; ""Yeah, but much colder from all the products that come from the freezers"

So he gave me a smile and said; "All right! Then tomorrow I'll come and buy coffee"

I laughed and said "I'm not working tomorrow, but you can come this Saturday! I'm here then."

He smiled again and said; "Deal, I'll come by then."

And then he walked away.

And then I felt really really weird..

When..? When..

And then you'll see I'll be the last and only one..

Hoolleee!!

Ik moet pennen dokter worden..

Iemand zei laatst tegen mij;

"Er zijn meer jongens op de wereld dan vissen in de zee"
Eigenlijk denk ik dat dat niet waar is.
Maar ik vond het toch wel een geweldige en motiverende uitspraak xD

Explore What You Don't Know

I wonder how long now it's going to take until my head will explode and leave a massive snot-stain on the wall..
Because that's what I feel like..
A ticking snot-bomb..

My new bed sleaps DELISH!

I love it..
Sucks though..
I have a 2 person bed, but a 1 person matras =']

Stupido!

Busy with Surprises again..
BIT stressed though.. Cause I just really can't find the time to finish it xD
And my present might not be here on time..

IIEK!

I'm already listening to Christmas songs =D
And I LIKE it!
I put them on while I was showering.. And just because I liked the songs so much I stood under the shower for almost an hour..
OEMPH! Bad-ass no?

Screw.Him.