Top Of Embarresment

You know what's painfull?
What stabs you in the heart?
I know it might sound weird.. But it really did hurt..
Besides.. he looked so fine xO


I was working.. In the supermarket
And suddenly this guy steps up.
And I looked in his eyes and all I thought was; "Crap"
Obviously I immidiatly turned red!
It was the guy I had a major crush on when I was around 8?
Big deal.. Well for me it was..
It never "Worked out"? Never even made a move..

But I saw in his eyes he recognized me. He SAW me!
He knew who I was!
Though he just pretended like he didn't..
But he did..
And I know he remembered I had a crush on him..

The thing with his eyes was, it was like he was scared
Like he actually thought I might fall in love with him again..
It freaked me out!
I was so embarresed!
Didn't know what to say to him..
So I just acted like I didn't know who he was
How low and week of me...

What was even more sad?
After he left the first thing I thought was;
"I have to blog this!"

That's No Way Of Punishment

People keep saying I'm smart..
Yeah whatever..

I might know some fancy words but that's it..
I look smart, I sound smart, but I'm NOT smart!

It's not that bad =']

It's just that with school we're working on a project..
And they give me two hard tasks!
TWO HARD TASKS!
And they have three easier tasks..
No fair..

Sorry For My Incompetance

HOLY CROW THE SUN IS SHINING!

The Cold

I'm SO over this cold weather!
I can't stand it anymore!
In the beginning I liked it..
"Ooh! Snow! SWEET!"
But now I feel like crying =[
My hands hurt like hell from the cold and me feet won't even warm up anymore!
Can't blame them.. Why would they do it? They'll get cold again three minutes later anyway!


And WHY is it that when something bad happens it's not just ONE thing?
NO! EVERYTHING has to suck when just one bad thing happens..

Today on the way to school I got a flat tire.. So I was like, "allright, I'll just walk the rest"
- not thinking about the way back-
It took me 15 minutes to get to school what I usually cycle in 5..
SO! I had to get back once ofcourse!
So I took my bike and tried to cycle but I didn't wanted to ruin my bike so decided to walk..
So I walked..
AND IT WAS SO COLD I COULDN"T EVEN CRY COUSE MY TEARS WOULD FREEZE ON MY FREAKING CHEEK!
My hands hurt, my feet hurt..
And to top it off I had a stomache-ache and REALLY needed a bathroom..
And the sun wasn't out either so I was freezing the whole way..
And the wind wasn't nice - ofcourse - cause it kept blowing my hair in my face..
In total it took me over an hour to get home!!
I CAN CYCLE IT IN 15 MINUTES!! ARGH!!!

Next dilemma is.. What the hell am I going to go to school with now?
AAARGGH!!!

I"M SO FUCKING OF THIS FLIPPING COLD WEATHER!!

Please Mother Nature, PLEASE, let spring hurry up!!

Persuing Dreams

While Persuing your dreams you might run past it


Not to sound sentimental or whatever.. But why is it that when you fight for something you want.
You fight for something you really really want.
You persuit it.

Why is it that you lose sight of everything that is important?

Love
Family
Friends
Food
House

We become obsessed..
But why do we become obsessed with something we see as our goal but actually isn't?

How can we even become obsessed with something that is actually not important at all?
How is that possible..

People become obsessed with money, one of THE obsessesions what we lose our goals for.
They become under the illusion that once they have money they can have what they really want.

But mostly that's not even true!

If you really look around. Just stop what you're doing. Right now!
Do you have what you need?

Do you have a roof over your head?
Do you have a place to sleep?
Do you have food everyday?
Do you have somebody to hold you when you're sad?
Do you have somebody to laugh with when you're happy?
Do you have somebody to just have around without even having the need to talk?

Isn't that what life is about?
Isn't that what we all are supposed to need?
Basic needs.
Life should just be around basic needs.

Not about what kind of clothes you wear. What kind of house you live. Where you're from.
Where you eat. Where you go to school. What kind of music you're in to.

Life should be around the basic things.
Not all the other things people just think are important.

While Persuing Dreams You Might Run Past It

Update-Blog

Oh Alright! I admit!

I am THE worst blogger in the world!
Seriously.. for how long didn't I write?
*is that sad to actually go check right now*
Last was 26th of December.. What makes it? 23 days..

And I'm NOT gonna give a whole detailed story about my days in France anymore..
Just because I don't want to.. AND just because I already forgot more then half of it xD
*backs away shily*

But I WILL make it up for you! =D
As I have some serious gossip! =D
Well it's not really a gossip.. It's the truth..
I officially have a boyfriend!!
ahu ahu!
And he's way to sweet then is good for me xD
And I'm so incredibly unrevocibly in love with him!
I've been in love before.. But néver like this!
And I like it!
I'm happy almost all of the time!
I think I'm even driving my friends crazy =]
Though afterall they were the ones bothering me about the bloody fact that I was still single and they were gonna find me a boy SOON!
Now they don't have to =D

Okay.. Stop talking about your boyfriend *sigh*

School started.. AGAIN.. And I won't talk about that!
No - I - Won't!

I'm skipping school a lot lately =']
Well at least I think so.. My friends who make me don't xD
The worst thing is;
I DON'T MIND!
Cause I rather skip school and eat the best french fries ever then spend some wasted time in a classroom where I won't learn anything anyway..

SO this is my update-blog =']
How much did I actually update ya?
Well not..
But I promise to frequently start blogging again =D
*ahum* try *ahum*