Get In Line For The Sunshine

All right! Big sum-up of the past few dayysss,,

Friday I saw an “old” friend of mine. Well.. She’s not really an old friend. She’s not a friend from a long time ago, nor a really old person.. (Perhaps in mind though.. *wink*)

I just didn’t see her for a while.. We’ve had our “problems”, but I feel so lonely and not myself lately, I thought lets get the magic going again. She’s the only friend that fits me like a glove, finish each others sentences, think exactly the same. So I thought it might be good to get back again. Not only because that would do me very good! (Gosh how selfish!) I just really like her!
And it was so much fun seeing each other again! =D *sigh* just like the good old days..

We ate at the same café where we first met (I met her on some kind of forum, and the café is where we first saw each other in person) Very weird to be there again, like, six years later.. Can’t believe I already know her that long! I know her longer than my own “friend-group” (I really don’t know what else to call it.. xD)

Anyway.. Contact is back up again, and I can’t wait to see her again! No doubt it will be a laugh!

Friday evening I went go-carting! WAS SO FREAKING MUCH FUN! I ended up last of the 6 people on the track.. But I didn’t care.. Wasn’t there to be first, was there to have some fun! Went pretty fast though!

Even.. in the second lap I flew out into the tire-wall pretty hard.. VERY hard.. My nephew was even worried after we got out of the last race! Really hurt though.. My wrist hurt till Sunday morning.. And nobody even cared, they were all to busy listening to themselves.. The only one who asked was my nephew..

But anyway it was really fun! Did way to much eye-flirting with one of the go-cart-track-guys.. Was fun to though xD

Saturday I had to work 8 hours in the supermarket again.. I’m really not liking this.. I hope this is not going to become regular! I won’t be able to keep it up! And internship AND 8 hours of work in the supermarket in the weekend?! And then I didn’t count the evening in the supermarket through the week.. If this is going to continue I will say something of it..

Saturday evening was my friends birthday! Yay! Was fun! (Geez.. Surprise..) Did all kinds of games, and we downloaded a stupid cat on our HTCs and started hitting it and talking to it xD Really fun! =D

Stop bitching.. It was only a stupid cat on a damned phone, it’s not real!

Sunday was a relax day.. Read books (No don’t shoot me yet)

Finished number 11, started number 12 (No, not yet!)

And ordered number 13 and 14 (Yep.. Go ahead.. Shoot me..)

I am not going to waste anymore words on this =P

Monday was my first day of internship again. Went pretty good actually! Though it wasn’t really much different then the usual.. Day went fast though! But still I rather would have stayed in bed.

A college told me though, that I was sticking out of the line of average students. That I had so many ideas, and so many will and concentration, and discipline, work-drive. I was different then other students, the average kind. I would do very well one day.

It was really nice to hear! And I believed that she meant it! I didn’t really believe IT though.. Doesn’t really sound like me..

And Monday evening I had my driving-lesson again! It went so well! Really easy and just flowed! Drove a lot over normal ways and stuff, really in traffic and not just some disserted road.

And when I came cycling home and turned down my street I saw the building-cart with “HIS” last name on it was gone. I couldn’t help but have a really really wide grin xD

I’m thinking less about him (I just keep saying that.. Doesn't make it less true though..), it’s really hard to explain. People keep asking me how I feel about him, and how I feel about it, and how far I am with “getting over it”. It’s really hard to explain..

I can’t really..
What I CAN tell you is that I’m okay, and that there’s no chance in hell, that we’ll get back together.
I don’t know if I told you guys this, but he was “haunting” me in my dreams. He was always there. If it was a person that really had something to do with my dream, or a person who walked by, a face in the crowd, at the back of the bar. He was always there. I always felt weird when he was in my dream. Some sort of fear, don’t know of what, but it still felt a bit like a sort of love.. Not anymore! He’s popping up less and less, and when I do see him, I just smile, and it doesn’t feel weird anymore..
I’ve let go. It’s getting easier and easier to look at other boys and flirt. (Especially the flirting part xD)

So yeah..

And now I’m at me internship doing things that have absolutely nothing to with what I’m supposed to do xD