"Hold Me Like You'll Never Let Me Go"

"Love is a splendid thing, love, Lifts you up where we belong, all you need is love"

Like they said in "Moulin Rouge" and several songs.
And it is. Love is a splendid thing. And it does lift me up where I belong. I need Love.

"Love is a beautiful rose with painful thorns"

That's what I told my boyfriend. And it's true.
Love hurts. It Hurts me all the time. it's ripping me open. Tearing me apart, limb by limb, piece by piece.

"What is Love?"

A lot of people wonder about this. And so do I.
What is love?

When do you know you found true love?
When do you know this really is love?
And not a fling, or just a crush?

What's the difference between a crush and love?

Honestly, I don't know.. Don't you need to have a crush on him before you truly know you love him?
And isn't a crush some kind of love?

I honestly don't know.

But if we look away from the part about what love is.

Why do we need Love so bad?

Why do we? Why does a human need love? Why can't we stand being alone?
Why do we long for that soulmate? That one we belong to? That one we feel home with, even when you're on the strangest place on earth?
Why is the quest of most lives to find the one?

And we all know Love hurts. It hurts so bad. It makes me want to tear of all my clothes and just stand in the nothingness.
The nothingness that's only filled with happy things when he is close to me.
The notthingness that's filled with silent tears, unseen tears, imaginary tears.

The maddening, never ending, nothingness

Just imagining him around another woman makes my head explode.
Thinking about him leaving me makes my heart burst.

So maybe it's onlye the leaving part that hurts, the being away from each other part, the missing part.
Maybe that's the only thing that hurts?

But I hate that part. I hate that part so much.
And we still love?

"I was born to love you baby!"

And then the love thing. This confusing, amazing, wonderful, love thing.

Just think about it.
Count the songs about love in your playlist. Songs about being in love, songs about a love, songs about a broken love.
How many of all the songs in your playlist are NOT about love?
I bet it aren't a lot..

Everything in life seems to be revolving around love.
And I can't seem to get my head around it.
Why? Why is this?
Why are we so incredibly depending on love?

And why is it,
that even though we know this is all going to hurt so much we are going to go crazy,
we still fall in love?

"If you can't fight the feeling, let go and believe in, fall in love"

And though I don't understand a single thing about the love-issue

The love bug has struck me.

I'm so in love there's no turning back.

I tingle when he touches me.
I shiver when he tells me he loves me.
I hold me breath when his lips touch my sking.
My head spins when we kiss.

"That's when you know you're in love"

But I guess I don't really need to know what love is.
Maybe that's one of the fun parts about it?
Maybe we'll never really know what love is..

And whether I know what it is or not..

I'm going to love anyway

"Hold me like you'll never let me go"