Happy Bubbles

Who invented happy bubbles?
Everybody knows bubbles break eventually..
Everybody knows they'll break anyway..

I *** and **** and can't they just *** themselves and *** the *** dead; fill in the blanks..

Sometimes I really hate my parents!
They always know how to ruin things!
I'm so happy lately, but they always seem to find a needle that's sharp enough to burst my bubble.

And it makes me wanna cry..
If that would help..
If it'd help i'd cry..
I'd cry lakes, seas, oceans! I'd cry worlds!
But it doesn't help.. so the tears won't come..
They'll be wasted anyway..

They never let me take any adventures.. They never let me do something new..
All they want me to become is some boring dumb-ass girl who gets straight a's, get's a good boring job, finds a husband, have two kids, have a boring life with all I worry about is "OH MY GOD! There's a hair on the floor! NOOO!! I just cleaned that?!"
About if the house is clean enough..

Well I don't want to be that girl, I want to see new things! I want to do new things!
I WANT things to go BAD!
Very BAD!
That's how I'll learn!
I never learn!
I don't know anything about the world..
I don't know a single thing!

I want to take risks.. I want to go to far country's with a 90% chance that something WILL go bad!
I want to go home in the middle of the night and show them that not every person that walks over street at that hour is a complete moron..
I want to buy stuff what turns out to be total crap..
I want to meet people that are bad for me..
I want to take risks!
I want to learn!
I won't learn with stupid storys! I need to see! I need to feel! I need to live it!

WHY is it that they won't let me go?
WHY won't they see that I'm a woman now, I'm a big girl! I can take care of myself!
WHY won't they let me do stuff on my own?

And why is it that won't allow me to do something, but when it happens to them they always change the rules..

Why is it, that they're always talk about doing me good, but the only good I can think of is;
- A roof over my head
- A bed to sleep in
- Food to eat
- Allowence
- They bring me to places (Sometimes if I beg them.. Or if they won't let me go over street when it's a certain hour on the clock)

But how come they always seem to find other stuff? Like.. I should be happy that they allow to let my boyfriend sleep over?
Like what non-sense is that?! I love him, I need him, He's my happyness..
They don't want me to be happy? Like.. What the fuck?!

I don't get it.. I just don't get it.. I really really don't get it ='[

"Then why don't you talk to them?"

Cause i'll lose anyway... They won't get my point.. They'll only start about that how I'm selfish, and that first I need to change my behaviour and then they'll see (Obviously they won't)
And I never do anything for them so why would they do something for me?

It's only a vacation.. Its not for them.. I go on a vacation for ME.. I go on a vacation to be away from THEM! They only have to say; "Okay, take care! Don't get yourself into trouble and let us hear from you every once in a while! You need us to help you search things up for you? Want us to help you pack? Sure!"

Some people half my age have been outside this fucking shithole country on their own..

I WANT TO HAVE A FUCKING LIFE OF MY OWN AND STOP LIVING THEIR IMAGINARY DAUGHTERS LIFE!!!!

The Key

You hold the key to my world in your hands

Tame My Wild Wild Heart

I know it's sorta a cheesy song..
But I really like the lyrics =]

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When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

You May Not Realise It

You may not realize it,
But you opened my eyes,
You may not realize it,
But you opened my arms,
You may not realize it,
But you opened my heart,
You may not realize it,
But you found..
Me

I'll Will Survive! (Hey Hey)

What..? I think the Hey Hey part is one of the best parts in the whole song allright?
STOP JUDGING ME!

Today was the first day of my internship.
And though my attention-meter is a bit in the minus
(Probably because of the lack of boyfriend I usually have on weekdays, who sorta takes care of 90% of my attention-meter)
I survived!
I survived my first day of being an intern!
I didn't really disslike it.. though I didn't like it either =P
You ever felt mentally tired?
Not because you did so much, but because you did exactly the opposite?
Well that's what I had today..
I bored my ***ing mind out today!
I seriously did!
But I didn't mind.. Cause im still learning there, so I didn't waste my time..
And it's better then working my ass off cause I don't like working my ass off..
I like being proud of myself for something =P
But not when I'm tired.. Just totally takes away the whole fun of it..

I was kinda scared for it.. Still am..
I'm scared I'll get bored to fast of it.. That I won't be able to keep it up for.. 6 months?
Cause that's the total amount I'll be there =O
So yeah, I'm scared to death I'll get bored out of my mind!
I hope I'll get really busy, and yet not too tired..
Anyway..

And I'm quite proud of myself I didn't go crazy missing my boyfriend =D
I used to.. But somehow I managed to give it a place in my mind.
I still miss him, LOADS!
But it's not making me stop what I'm doing every 10 seconds anymore =P
(Gosh.. I'm such a cliché sometimes..)
I think it's also because lately there are so many things that remind me of him..
Like..
Dutch songs, cause he listens to a lot of those
Green grass, because he has this green vest that says "Hahaha" O=] I like that vest xD
Lambs, because we once walked past some lambs and I told they were so cute, and then he smiled at me that was 10 times cuter then those lambs! Hehe =]
And loads of other stuff..
Makes it easier to cope things, cause I get things in my face that remind me of him a few times a day.. It's not the same, but it makes it easier =P
Makes it feel a little tiny bitsy like he's here with me 0=]
HOW CHEESY!

Lots of Love! <3

It's Electric Twist

But You, You give me the electric twist,
and it kicks and it kicks,
like a pony

And you, you might get away with it,
it's a risk, it's a risk,
Yeah..

the touch of your lips,it's a shock not a kiss,
it's electric twist, it's electric twist






(it's a song! If you wanna hear it click here)

Easter: Chocolate, Church, Family, Boyfriend = Perfect!

Hello!
Yes! It's true! I didn't forget to blog!
You guys are pathetic if you think I did..
But I didn't so..
Actually I just didn't know anything interesting to blog.. sow...

ANYWAYZ!

Easter =D
Oh my gosh I loved it! =D
Got a lot of chocolate xD Didn't mind it (A)
Got a lot of cute things! Didn't mind that either (A)
Got my damn period during easter! Very did mind that =O
But I won't talk about that cause that's yuckie..

Saw my family again and that was lovely!
Saw my boyfriend and he stayed over for two nights which was ultra mega lovely!
THE TEMPERATURE IS A FREAKING 20 DEGREES RIGHT NOW! Which is not as lovely as the boyfriend thing (Teehee (A) ) But very very lovely non-the-less =O

So.. back to bussiness..

I'm not a very faithfull person (if that's what they call it) You know.. believing in god..
But weirdly I do give a lot of value to going to the church with christmas and easter, though I do not know why..
I keep telling everyone it's just because it's cozy with the family. But I don't think that's the full truth..
I like going to church. I like thinking about the tales they tell during church.
I think the tales are true, but we take them to litteraly.
People twist their words, interpertate them wrong..
But I'm not going to talk about that either =P
We sang a song during church with easter and it really touched me. The priest didn't like it, he said it was unrealistic. Well.. A lot is isn't it? But the things thate are unreal makes us wanna achieve our goals, it makes us wanna go on.
So I really like the song xD
And I have it here for you =D
It's dutch though.. So go get babblefish or something xD(A)

Trek ik de zee door dan zal ik je vinden,
over het water zul je er zijn.
Jij kent mijn wegen in den blinde,
gaat met mij mee door de woestijn.
Trek ik de zee door dan zal ik je vinden,
over het water zul je er zijn.

Trek ik de zee door dan zul je mij wachten,
over het water ben je mijn vuur,
dicht aan jouw hart wil ik overnachten,
zonder jou heb ik rust nog duur.
Trek ik de zee door dan zul je mij wachten,
over het water ben je mijn vuur.

Trek ik de zee door dan zul je mij vinden,
over het water stil je mijn pijn.
nog ken ik nauwelijks wie ik beminde,
maar ga met mij mee door de woestijn,
Trek ik de zee door dan zul je mij vinden,
over het water stil je mijn pijn.

[Klik hier als je het gezongen wilt horen]
(Okay it's not really sung but at least you can hear the melody it's sung with, THOUGH! It's prettier with just piano and not this funky failing ugly beat)

I really like it.. It touches me everytime we sing it in church (And I go sooo many times xD)

Well..
I hope you all had a splendid easter =D

xXx