Sometimes I really hate my parents!
They always know how to ruin things!
I'm so happy lately, but they always seem to find a needle that's sharp enough to burst my bubble.
And it makes me wanna cry..
If that would help..
If it'd help i'd cry..
I'd cry lakes, seas, oceans! I'd cry worlds!
But it doesn't help.. so the tears won't come..
They'll be wasted anyway..
They never let me take any adventures.. They never let me do something new..
All they want me to become is some boring dumb-ass girl who gets straight a's, get's a good boring job, finds a husband, have two kids, have a boring life with all I worry about is "OH MY GOD! There's a hair on the floor! NOOO!! I just cleaned that?!"
About if the house is clean enough..
Well I don't want to be that girl, I want to see new things! I want to do new things!
I WANT things to go BAD!
Very BAD!
That's how I'll learn!
I never learn!
I don't know anything about the world..
I don't know a single thing!
I want to take risks.. I want to go to far country's with a 90% chance that something WILL go bad!
I want to go home in the middle of the night and show them that not every person that walks over street at that hour is a complete moron..
I want to buy stuff what turns out to be total crap..
I want to meet people that are bad for me..
I want to take risks!
I want to learn!
I won't learn with stupid storys! I need to see! I need to feel! I need to live it!
WHY is it that they won't let me go?
WHY won't they see that I'm a woman now, I'm a big girl! I can take care of myself!
WHY won't they let me do stuff on my own?
And why is it that won't allow me to do something, but when it happens to them they always change the rules..
Why is it, that they're always talk about doing me good, but the only good I can think of is;
- A roof over my head
- A bed to sleep in
- Food to eat
- Allowence
- They bring me to places (Sometimes if I beg them.. Or if they won't let me go over street when it's a certain hour on the clock)
But how come they always seem to find other stuff? Like.. I should be happy that they allow to let my boyfriend sleep over?
Like what non-sense is that?! I love him, I need him, He's my happyness..
They don't want me to be happy? Like.. What the fuck?!
I don't get it.. I just don't get it.. I really really don't get it ='[
"Then why don't you talk to them?"
Cause i'll lose anyway... They won't get my point.. They'll only start about that how I'm selfish, and that first I need to change my behaviour and then they'll see (Obviously they won't)
And I never do anything for them so why would they do something for me?
It's only a vacation.. Its not for them.. I go on a vacation for ME.. I go on a vacation to be away from THEM! They only have to say; "Okay, take care! Don't get yourself into trouble and let us hear from you every once in a while! You need us to help you search things up for you? Want us to help you pack? Sure!"
Some people half my age have been outside this fucking shithole country on their own..
I WANT TO HAVE A FUCKING LIFE OF MY OWN AND STOP LIVING THEIR IMAGINARY DAUGHTERS LIFE!!!!
They always know how to ruin things!
I'm so happy lately, but they always seem to find a needle that's sharp enough to burst my bubble.
And it makes me wanna cry..
If that would help..
If it'd help i'd cry..
I'd cry lakes, seas, oceans! I'd cry worlds!
But it doesn't help.. so the tears won't come..
They'll be wasted anyway..
They never let me take any adventures.. They never let me do something new..
All they want me to become is some boring dumb-ass girl who gets straight a's, get's a good boring job, finds a husband, have two kids, have a boring life with all I worry about is "OH MY GOD! There's a hair on the floor! NOOO!! I just cleaned that?!"
About if the house is clean enough..
Well I don't want to be that girl, I want to see new things! I want to do new things!
I WANT things to go BAD!
Very BAD!
That's how I'll learn!
I never learn!
I don't know anything about the world..
I don't know a single thing!
I want to take risks.. I want to go to far country's with a 90% chance that something WILL go bad!
I want to go home in the middle of the night and show them that not every person that walks over street at that hour is a complete moron..
I want to buy stuff what turns out to be total crap..
I want to meet people that are bad for me..
I want to take risks!
I want to learn!
I won't learn with stupid storys! I need to see! I need to feel! I need to live it!
WHY is it that they won't let me go?
WHY won't they see that I'm a woman now, I'm a big girl! I can take care of myself!
WHY won't they let me do stuff on my own?
And why is it that won't allow me to do something, but when it happens to them they always change the rules..
Why is it, that they're always talk about doing me good, but the only good I can think of is;
- A roof over my head
- A bed to sleep in
- Food to eat
- Allowence
- They bring me to places (Sometimes if I beg them.. Or if they won't let me go over street when it's a certain hour on the clock)
But how come they always seem to find other stuff? Like.. I should be happy that they allow to let my boyfriend sleep over?
Like what non-sense is that?! I love him, I need him, He's my happyness..
They don't want me to be happy? Like.. What the fuck?!
I don't get it.. I just don't get it.. I really really don't get it ='[
"Then why don't you talk to them?"
Cause i'll lose anyway... They won't get my point.. They'll only start about that how I'm selfish, and that first I need to change my behaviour and then they'll see (Obviously they won't)
And I never do anything for them so why would they do something for me?
It's only a vacation.. Its not for them.. I go on a vacation for ME.. I go on a vacation to be away from THEM! They only have to say; "Okay, take care! Don't get yourself into trouble and let us hear from you every once in a while! You need us to help you search things up for you? Want us to help you pack? Sure!"
Some people half my age have been outside this fucking shithole country on their own..
I WANT TO HAVE A FUCKING LIFE OF MY OWN AND STOP LIVING THEIR IMAGINARY DAUGHTERS LIFE!!!!
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