Books & London!

I think I've just finished the sexiest, hottest, amazingest, head swirling, body tingling book!
Oh - my - god..
A quick bite by Linsay Sands

Tomorrow London!
AAAHHH!!!

Omg..

I'm leaving for London the day after tomorrow and I still haven't packed my stuff o_O

AND I'M SO FREAKING EXCITED!

It's going to be ASOM!

Pictures

Here are some other pictures I didn't put in the posts, but are still worth showing!
I don't have my dads pics and vids yet.. So they'll come later ;]

Like I said.. You cant see the difference between sea and sky..

On one of our hikes

I just thought that was a funny picture =']

In the calbe car to monte

In Monte

Day 15

Day 15 - Goodbye Madeira..

Sooooo... Now I'm home again..
Makes me remember how crowded, pushy, full, "Krenterig", agressive, and what not, can be..
And it made me remember the hard way!
Got up at around 6..
We got off Madeiran lands against 10.. 

Landed in Holland around 4.
I'm sounding really depressed right now..
Somewhat I am, but still I'm happy to be home.
I slept in 10 minutes in my own, lovely, warm, soft bed! Oooh.. how nice that was..
I just sat in my room for a while doing nothing in particular.. 

It feels good to be home!

I closed a period in my life!
I feel so much better now then I did before..
I'm so happy I went after... "Him"..

I've closed that off now. I still think of him, I do.
But in a different way. I can't really let him go, I just can't.
Not that I don't want to! It's just really impossible.

I feel good. I feel SO good!

Day 14

Day 14 - the last day..

Did pretty much nothing today.. packed our bags and suitcases, we only barely could fill 4 cases! Really weird.. but better then paying extra for overweight!

Had a drink in Calheta and hang by the pool the rest of the day. Said goodbye to all the staff, they were so nice and lovely! Very spontaneous and joking around! Only already for the staff I'd return!

Then we had a chat with the boss of the dolphins-watching company (h2o-madeira) he was also the captain of the boat on our trip! Very handsome young man! Juan, from Argentina. We saw him a lot at the hotel the past 2 weeks, had a lot if chats with him! Today we chat to him about his website. He was talking about that he only use his website in Portuguese and English and that he was getting it in German but wanted it in Dutch to. So immediately my dad went like, yeah my daughter is Brilliant in English I'm sure she'll want to give it a try on giving you a good dutch translation! Me blushing like hell Ofcourse.. So he gave me his card and I'm going to check it out and give it a try! I think it's soo cool! This will look amazing on my portfolio..

After that paid all the bills at the reception. Joking around with the receptionist. It's always a big laugh when she's around xD actually you can have a good laugh with all the staff..

I'll miss it here.. but it's good to be going home. I miss my own bed..

Tomorrow at around 4 I'll land in Holland!

Goodnight Madeira..

Day 13

Day 13 - folklore dancing

Tomorrow the last day! So instead of laying back in the sun we did another hike.. along a levada again! Was pretty! But the scenery is starting to become the same everywhere so the walk was kinda boring..

There was a Madeiran folklore dance show tonight! Was funny to see! And the music was really cheery! And Ofcourse at the end I was "lucky" to to be asked to dance one of the dances! Was so much fun and not that hard! At some point everybody had to stand in a circle and you had one person had this shawl, you had to pick a boy/girl, put the shawl around the neck and pull him/her to the middle of the circle, than sit on your knees in the circle and kiss the other on both cheeks. I got pulled by this really fit boy from the dance group! Lucky me xD

Anyway.. all the way back to the apartment I was singing and dancing the folklore :-p

My dad made a film! I'll post it!

Really stared a lot at fit boy today.. I'm gonna miss staring at him.. or looking at his perfect gorgeous body by the pool *giggle*

A weird but awesome picture of me dancing folklore!

The guy in front during the polonaise was the guy who kissed me =']

Day 12

Day 12 - fit boy!

Did nothing special today.. we went to Rabeirra Brava, a town with.. actually nothing really to do.. but their berliner bolls were delish! After that we drove onwards to Calheta, we had to drive THROUGH a waterfall, yeah really! THROUGH! Was kinda funny though..

There's this really fit boy here.. saw him first time by the pool a few days ago and have had my eye on him since. He is just so cute! Very tanned, masculine body, sweet smile, blue eyes, sporty hair. SO cute! It's been really nice just looking at him.. *giggle*

It's not a fancy.. I just really enjoy looking at him. He makes me all push-over when he's around. It's fun to have that I-really-want-to-impress-him-feeling again! And he's dutch! (I seriously went all the way to Madeira to find fit dutch boys.. how come you never find this fit boys in the land they actually come from? Suddenly then they're all hiding out!)

And it seems like he looking over to me quit a lot as well.. but I might just imagine that.. cause I really want the attention..

The only thing is.. he does seem younger than me.. and that's never a good thing..

Omg he was reading "soldaat van oranje", he's intellectual to! I wish we could "officially" meet..

Day 11

Day 11 - hikes.......

More hikes today.. 2 kilometres down this time. To the nun valley. Yeah, it really was a village with only nuns. I walked open my blister, and Damn it hurts! The good thing is that my neck practically healed already!

It's really becoming hard to come up with things to do the remaining days :p

Day 10

Day 10 - shopping spree! (for realz this time)

Shopping in Funchal! Hooray! Totally want wild in the sale section of the Zara! Didn't buy much more.. a beautiful hairclip! My brother was constantly moaning about how much he wanted to go, how much he hated shopping, how he wanted that we were NOT going to enter any other clothes or shoe shop if it was to him. Really annoying.. Took the fun of it..

And that was kinda it.. days are becoming more relaxed and easier now.

Day 9

Day 9 - dolphins!

OMG! Today was amazing, unforgettable, spectacular, breathtaking, AWESOME! We decided to go dolphin and whale watching today. So we went on a special boat and went off with 5 others and 3 crew members, a girl, she was a student in oceanology, she was so nice and smart! A young man, the "captain" of the speedboat, we saw him a lot at the hotel and made nice chats with him about what he saw on his days, also he runs the business, he set everything up from scratch. And the man's girlfriend, a very nice but shy and timid girl.

After about 30-45 minutes we saw dolphins. Real dolphins! In the wild! And they were so close! They were all around the boat, under it, front of it, the sides, at the back, everywhere! It was so amazing to see! Sliding so graciously through the water, popping up every once in a while. They were SO close! The dolphins we saw were spotted dolphins, the friendliest and nicest dolphin species. I could have stayed so long there just watching quietly.. but then the boy in front of me threw up and everything got messy, sticky, stinky, yucky, ew.. so we had to bring him back to land, but because of that we couldn't see more dolphins and no whales at all.. so that was sad.. but it was okay, not that he could do anything about it.. but after that we sailed a bit along the coast, and swam in the Atlantic which was amazing as well!

Came home totally knackered! But after dinner we still went to see a PowerPointpresentation by them, which was really good! About all the marine mammals.

And now I'm so tired I could sleep standing, so I'm going to catch some zzz's.

(I didn't take any pictures because I didn't want to risk losing my phone! (TRAGIC!) But my dad made some small films so when I can I'll try to put them up here!)

Day 8

Day 8 - and more hiking...

Aaargh! Todays hike was horrible! It was so early and so hot! I almost broke under the heat! And the last 2 kilometres were all steep roads up, horrible I Tell you! Was tired as hell! But the surroundings were really beautiful! It was a hike to a cliff where 25 waterfalls were next to each other! Very pretty!

And tonight after diner we sat at the terrace of the hotel looking out on the sea, cocktail in our hand, jazz band playing in the background, it was perfect..

The white streams are the waterfalls, for if you didn't get it =P

Day 7

Day 7 - lava canals

I'm really nearing the day that I'll skip breakfast.. seriously..

We went to some lava canal caves today! Was really impressive and beautiful! Madeira was formed out of a volcano or lava or something.. I didn't really get it.. but anyways, we learned about how the island was formed and the canals were made. It looked really weird so I can't explain it.. and my picture doesn't really show it.. so I'll wait for my dads pics and then I'll show again!

We drove home past the coastline and a bit through the hills. It was really funny! We couldn't drive on twice because the road was blocked by cows! Wild cows everywhere! Looked really funny xD

I got really badly burned yesterday.. my calfs hurt like help and my neck is even burned so bad it has a blister! And that hurts even more! Hope it'll be over soon..

I post the cards today! So they'll be in Holland soon!

Day 6

Day 6 - the hardest hike in my life!

And yet another day was spend hiking! This time we walked over one of the highest mountains of Madeira, (een bergkam eigenlijk..) It was SO high! But really beautiful, we were even so high we were above the clouds! (actually now it sounds like we were on drugs or something xD )

But the hike was so hard and tiring! Stairs up stairs down, walk up walk down, and again and again and again. And it was all in the burning sun! So I got a sunburn.. and it hurts.. I was so happy when we got back to the car! My heart was pounding like help! I thought if it didn't and now I would die!

I also wrote my cards this evening! So they'll be send soon!

Day 5

Day 5 - sunbathing!

I really couldn't get up today.. breakfast ends at 10 and getting up at 9 every morning when you've had a tiring day before is just so hard! There's going to come a day (probably more..) that I'm going to skip breakfast just because I just really can't get up!

Anyway, today we went to Calheta, Jardim do Mar and Paul do Mar. Three coast cities/towns/villages in a line. In Calheta we went to a sugar cane rum factory and tried some sugar cane juice, tastes really good!

In Jardim do Mar we walked along the boulevard (a boulevard without shops, cafes or restaurants, never seen those before!) And I wanted to footbath in the Atlantic! Ofcourse I slipped and almost fell in.. luckily I could grab a big rock or I really would have fell into it! (I bet you can all see this happening..)

Paul do Mar wasn't really exciting.. quite boring really..

Rest of the day we spend by the pool! Totally obsessed with my book "The Lady Elizabeth" can't put it away!

Got a bit of a tan, and a sunburn.. Ofcourse..

Haven't found the creativity to write my cards yet! Hope it'll come tomorrow..

Day 4

Day 4 - horrible hiking

Today we stood up extra early, got breakfast extra early, cause we were going hiking again. And then we had to sit around for an hour because our parents hadn't really figured everything out yet.. and there goes my extra hour of sleep..

But we were on our way. Stopped at a little lighthouse, wasn't much special.. but it the view was great!

Then we went for the place where we were going to start our hike. It was past a piece of the levada again. (there is one levada over the whole island)

We were walking for about an hour when my dad noticed, "hey, we walked past our exit point!"

Turned out we had to take another path about a half hour ago! Had two choices, go back, it go on but walk a little bit further. We chose the bit further cause it might me nice right? That little bit further turned out more then a hour further.. and almost half of the way we had to go up or down a very steep road! So when a bus was coming we immediately stopped it, and it dropped us off right by the car! Thank god the busdriver was so nice! My mum was so pissed.. my feet are still aching!

Haha! This was really nice! Every morning I make my bed, put my pyjama under my pillow and my stuffed turtle on my bedside. And when I come back in the evening the chambermaid will have made bed even more neat (ain't actually that hard..), my pyjama will be folded perfectly on my bed and my turtle will be waiting for me to come through the bedroom door on the pillow. I've never met this lady but I like her already!

Why I presume it's a lady? Men would never do this..

We also bought postcards today! Now I only need the creativity to write them..

Right before I went to bed (I'm laying in bed now) I stood on the balcony and looked up to the sky. Beautiful stars everywhere! I wish you could have seen it.. they weren't like the stars in Holland. These are different. The ones here are really litterly twinkling! It's so beautiful! Twinkling stars across the whole sky! Like a real diamond night! It's so beautiful here.. I think it'd be easy for me to live here.. I love it here!

The view from the Lighthouse

The actual lighthouse.
This is the most important lighthouse to boats who travel to America.

These two pictures ^^ vv Were made on the hike

Day 3

Day 3 - shopping! (yeah I wish..)

Today we went to Funchal which is the capital of Madeira. There we went to what was supposed to be the most wonderful market of the world according to the manager of the hotel. Well.. when we entered I almost vomited because of the horrible fish-stench! It was a big hall where they sold freshly caught fish. Which meant they cleaned it and all right in front of your nose. I don't like fish, not as in food not as in laying dead on a table in front of me.. so that was far from wonderful.. but then we went through a hallway and got in a very pretty market place with tiny shops with fruits and vegetables and traditional baskets, cloths and clothing (and a free WiFi-zone yay!) It was lovely there! Tried the most unthinkable tropical fruits and they tasted amazing! I tried a banananas (I can't remember how the locals called it..) which is a banana and a pineapple at the same time. It has the shape of a banana, the texture of a pineapple, the taste is a combination of the two. Might sound gross but it tastes really good!

After that we went up the mountain by cable-car, amazing view!

Up there we went to see a the botanical garden from some emperor.. anyway, was beautiful! Pretty flowers, waterfalls, ponds, bridges, it had everything! Besides, it had so many small pass ways through trees and climbing between rocks, really exciting for a girl like me xD

When we were down again we went to a cathedral, really pretty but have seen more impressive ones..

Oh! And I did buy new shoes! Or sandals.. don't know what to call it.. but.they're silver and really pretty and walk sooo good!

And in the evening we learned how to make Poncha. That's a traditional drink to get warm really really fast. It has 45% alcohol! It contains bee honey, lemon juice, and sugar-cane rum with 55%alcohol. It tasted pretty good! Not alcoholic at all!

And the boy who did the presentation was sooo cute.. *giggle*

From the cable car up to Monte where we went to a Botanic Garden that once belonged to some emperor..
Yeah.. we're heading to the clouds I know..
Wasn't cold though!

In Monte looking down from a platform.

In Monte, I called this "The wamping Willow"
It looked so much alike xD

The whole garden was in a (sort of) Japanese style.
But they had fake TerraCotta Army statues..
Last time I checked that was chinese..

Just some other pictures from Monte. Was really beautiful there!
My brother and me did a lot of climbing and crawling through narrow paths or jumping through waterfalls, stepping stones in the water, climbing up to a small little funny castle, feeding Japanese fish. Lots of fun!

These ran around the appartments and hotel at night and in the early morning.
Very fast and very scary. Even my dad gets spooked every time he sees one.
We called them Hairy Harry's.. Though they weren't really hairy so I didn't get it.. =']

Day 2

Day 2 - hiking

Woke up after sleeping in a lovely bed! Haven't slept this nice in a while..

Had a nice good (english) breakfast and then had a presentation about the island and what to do around here. After that had a little swim, surprise, the pool is amazing!, and then went on a hike past a levada.

A levada is a small water way through mountains and city to transport water over the island so the people can irrigate the lands everywhere. Cause the Madeirans build houses everywhere, if it's not a house there it'll be a road, it ain't a road they'll plant some tropical fruits there.

And there is a beautiful hiking path next to it!

Oh wauw.. so many flowers and pretty things.. it really brought the photographer on me up! Around every corner there would be something else pretty to take a picture of!

It was just to stunning.. 

The path langs the Levada, beautiful flowers all along the way! Agapantus are they called. It seems a bit cloudy there, but you always walked through clouds in the morning. Very refreshing and funny!

This and and the pictures under here are just some pictures of things I saw during the hike.

My brother on the bare-feet-walk. It's a path at the hotel, you had to walk over all sorts of stuff.
Stones, Wood, Mud, Sand, Gravle, Leeves, Those wooden cole-like things, Water..
VERY PAINFUL! But in the end very relaxing for you feet after a long hike!

The view from the part of the mountain where the Bare-feet-walk was. You see a small part of a city down there. That's Paul Do Mar. Our hotel was in Prazeres.

 

Excuses + Day 1

I'm so sorry! I'm so so sorry! Today I won't have written for two weeks! (well.. for me it's actually 4 days but when I'll post this it'll be 2 weeks..)

You see.. I'm on holiday right now! In Madeira!

And it's beautiful here!

So.. to make it up with you I've kept sort of a diaries and made loads of pictures!

Hope you won't be too mad with me?

Day 1 - the travel

Oh my god.. how hard it was to get up and be awake! I did everything in automatic-mode, did it but not grasp it. We left for the airport at 3 o'clock before getting the last stuff. We were at schiphol at 4. In the morning that is.

Checked in (had to pay extra because are luggage was to heavy (whoops!)) And that's when we hearers our plain had been delayed. 2 hours! So instead of boarding 6 something we now had to wait till 8! Though.. I think everyone will admit that waiting with a nice hot steamy Starbucks really isn't that bad xD (giggle)

Course the Starbucks would have been enough if we could have boarded immediately.. but we had to wait for another hour! Horrible! But the mega ultra hot pilot (who looked like Carlisle Cullen) made me happy again xD

We were at the plain at 8.45 and we were in the air at 9.15.

The flight was beautiful! Very easy. And we arrived in funchal at 11.30. Got our rental car and were on our way to Prazeres, the town we were staying in. Arrived there around 2 or 3. The trip there! Wow! Amazing! Beautiful flowers and trees, blue ocean, mountains, grasses, breathtaking! I wanted to make pictures of everything!

Our apartment is really nice, I share a room with my brother and we have our own bathroom! Have a living room and a kitchen and also a broad balcony! It has everything we need!

The temperatures are nice! Not to warm to not be able to do something. Not to cold to wear sleeves!

Anyway.. I'm going to enjoy it here!

Here some pictures of the day!

The view from the plane; Amsterdam! 

More beautiful views from the plain! Sometimes you seriously couldn't see the difference between de sea and the sky.. very weird and confusing!

Madeira! From the plane! The city you see there, (The lighter smudge on the picture at the sea) that's Funchal, the capital city!

We got a Opel Corsa as our rental car.. It was a big puzzle to get 4 suitcases in it AND 4 people!

In our Hotel!
This is the view I had when I stepped out of my room..

The sunset in the Atlantic from our room

Me and my brothers bed, mine is the tidiest one, the one in the back..
We had our own bathroom! Ideal!

Tell me..

How many times can my heart bear it to break?

It's my birthday ahu!

It's my birthday ahu! It's my birthday ahu! It's my birthday ahu! It's my birthday ahu! It's my birthday ahu! It's my birthday ahu! It's my birthday ahu! It's my birthday ahu! It's my birthday ahu! It's my birthday ahu! It's my birthday ahu! It's my birthday ahu! It's my birthday ahu! It's my birthday ahu!

SWEET 18!!!

And I like it!!

Finally I did it!

I talked to him!

I finally managed to say something to him!

It was just a chat, about nothing important.. about some concerts he was going to.. really casual.

But I loved talking to him! It felt really good!

Not in a "I'm so in love with him I want him back"- way. No..

I don't really know why I liked talking to him but it wasn't like that..

Another step in getting over him made

See.. He didn't eat me..

One Month Single

One month single..

What has changed?

I feel lonelier..

I feel more confused..

I know how strong I am now..

I know I've got a strong will..

I know my brain and my heart can't coorperate and are constantly fighting against each other, tricking each other, playing games, making me more confused..

I've accepted that I'm single, nothing I can do about that..

I've accepted that he's gone.. If this is the way he wants to do this I'll let him have this way.. It says to much about him, and yeah it hurts, and yeah I miss him (a lot..), but that doesn't change anything..
I loved him, but if he doesn't want to be with me, than what would I be fighting for?

I'm letting him go, I'm letting it go..

I'll never really forget him, just because the whole world knows no girl ever gets over their first boyfriend, but also because his name keeps popping up everywhere because there are so many companies that have his last name.. 

I still want to talk to him.. But I just can't make me to make the move..
I'm constantly starring at his msn name, but I dare not to say a word..

Sometimes I really wish he would talk to me..

Sometimes I wonder if he reads my blog.. Actually I don't know if he ever read it..
Don't know what I'd feel like if he read this..

Don't think it would change anything on my side anyway.. 

Last night I wondered what would happen with me if he got a new girlfriend before I'd get a new boyfriend..
I think I'd be sad for a while.. Because somehow he still feels a little bit "mine"..
I'd be happy for him though! Happy he's okay, and getting on with his life, found new happiness..
I think I'd get over that in a few days..

I'm now trying to make sence to my brain that I don't NEED a boyfriend NOW..
It's okay to be single for a while.. Get some new energy to give, get the "love-bar" at 100 again..
I'm scared that I'll go find a boyfriend just because I don't want to be alone..

I'm scared I'll run into something because I'm running away from something else..

I don't want to have a boyfriend just to not have to be alone, I want to fall in love again.. I want to feel that crush. I want to feel the rush in my vains only when his name pops up in my head. Want to feel that smile on my face when I'm walking away. Want to feel my head spin when he's next to me. I want to fall in love again.

But my brain can trick me into wanting a boyfriend too bad.. 

It's why I almost said no to "Him".. I wasn't sure if it was my heart telling these things or my brains.. 

I guess it'll just take time..
In time it'll all get better..

I feel good, I feel great!

It doesn't feel like the end of the world anymore.
Yeah, it still hurts sometimes, but it can only make me stronger..

It hurts so bad..

My neck really can't go on any longer.. it hurts so bad..

Sometimes it nearly makes me cry.. I can't sit, can't stand, can't lay down..

It makes me nauseas and gives me headaches..

It makes me lose my appetite and want to go to bed at 8!

It hurts so bad..

...

I'm to fucking scared to do it I can't do it..

Feels like he'll eat me if I'll talk to him! Christ!

I need to make this step but I'm to fucking scared to do it!

This is insane..

I'm starring at his MSN name for 10 minutes now, meaning to talk to him..

This is insane.. I'm insane..

Maybe I shouldn't do this..

If he wanted to talk to me he'd talk to me right?

What if he doesn't have the guts to talk to me either..

What if he wants me to make the move..

Am I ready to talk to him? Is he ready to talk to me?

What if it'll become an awkward conversation on the level 10..

Should I talk to him?

I wish something or someone would just give me a sign..

Why..?

If you could only see, understand, my side of the story ='[

I miss you...

I miss the friend I could tell everything..
Why did you dissapear?

And I want to talk to you so so bad..

I'm so done

I'm so done with everything..

I'm so done with becoming eighteen..

IT'S JUST A FUCKING AGE!
Just one year closer to the year I'll die..
God how I can't wait for that year to come right now..

All the things to take care of takes all the fucking fun away from becoming 18

And besides.. how much different will it be from becoming 17? 16?15? 4?
NOTHING!

I won't FEEL different! It's just a number we put on each other to have an excuse to say "I'm older, so much wiser than you are"
Which everyone knows is bullcrap..

I'm done with birthdays..

I only do it for the presents..
GO FUCK YOURSELF IF YOU'LL JUDGE ME ON THAT YOU DO IT TO! ADMIT IT!

I'm so fucking done with work

Nobody apreciates it, nobody understands it, nobody knows how hard it is to stand at that fucking customerdesk for 6 straight hours.
NOBODY FUCKING KNOWS!
So don't go tell me I can't be tired when I come home CAUSE YOU NEVER DONE IT!

Nor would you be able to.. 

I'm so done with thinking of him..

It's taking so much energy to fight against him, and still I can't win..

I think of him every second, I don't even know if I think of him as a friend, an anemy, a wished-for lover.. 

I can't see the difference between those anymore cause I feel it all at once..
I think I can't seem to let him go because I really really really don't want to be alone.
If I wasn't so.. scared... of being lonely again I probably already forgot about him..
I think that's why my mind is trying to tell me again that I love him..
It's totally the other way around!
It's not my heart fighting against my head, telling me that he IS the place to be! He is should have stayed mine!
No.. My heart is the one under attack..
My mind is telling my heart the keep loving him, he'll be good to me again, it'll become just like before, I don't NEED to be alone, I'll have him back again.

But my heart doesn't really want him back..
My heart wants something new, somebody new, explore new things, feel new things.
But my mind is scared to make the step. 

I'm so done with the constant struggle..

I'm so done with friends telling me all their fucking problems which makes me feel like an idiot because my problem is probably not half as bad as theirs so I just go on instead of deal with it cause it's nothing..

I'm so done with friends who are so selfish and just want attention for their own stupid life that I already know inside out, because nothing every changes with them, and still they manage to make it seem new everytime again.

I'm so done with being scared of loneliness. Everybody has it, nobody has really died of it, have they?

I'm so done with being tired all the fucking time

I'm so done with having a hurting neck all the fucking time

I'm so fucking done thinking of that FUCKING ASSHOLE THE WHOLE FUCKING TIME!

I'm so done with being somebody I'm not,
I'm so done with trying to look strong,
I'm so done with convincing people I'm okay.

I'm not okay.

But I don't need your help.
I don't need you sympathy.
I don't need a listening ear.
I don't need a shoulder to cry on.
I don't need "just a friend"
I don't need anybody

I don't need anything.

And I most deffenitly don't want anything from you..

Time bomb

Being at "the spot" is awfully.. I can feel my heart beat like a bomb and I see him everywhere!

It's like a gigantic emotion field and my heart is a bomb. Exploding at the exact spot we said goodbye..

Shut the door

Just when I thought I'd thrown you out, shot the door..

.. you found my open window..

My heart just can't seem to let you go..

Shopping spree

Shopping was Awesome! Was nice with my friend and bought lots of pretty stuff! and didn't even spend that much.. really tired now though..

And it was so funny!!! There was this boy coming to us asking for help.

He was going on a date and didn't know what perfume to wear. So we told him what we thought smelled nice. He didn't agree to us at all but he moved on to the.second question. His friend was into mythology and stuff. So he started a whole story about that and asked us What finger we wear a ring on. Told a Whole story Bout which god belonged to which finger. Turned out my finger (thumb) was poseidon. God of the sea. Which meant I was a very independent person. (he told all this touching my hand)

Afterwards he asked my mail and number. Gave him my mail for the laugh xD

I don't think he was going on a date..

He was all over me!

Loved the attention though.. didn't like him but loved the attention! Don't even remember his name!

It was hilarious xD

and now I'm walking the same way to the tram I walked a Million times with him.. its so weird I can't do all.these things anymore.. I can't think is him anymore.. I can't have him anymore..

We avoided the spot where he broke up with me in the city.. but tomorrow I can't avoid it anymore..

I have to cross the station that's full of memories is him..

I'll be okay..

So I'm on my way to the diner with my internship colleagues! Should be fun.. and maybe afterwards a party for my neighbours exam. Should be fun to!

Weird feelings..

It's weird to stand at the spot where he broke up with me on the day we should've celebrated our 6 months anneversiry..