I can't..

FUCKING HELL CAN SOMEBODY PLEASE KILL ME I'M SO DONE WITH NOT UNDERSTANDING WHAT I FEEL AND WHAT TO DO WITH THESE FEELINGS!

I wish I could crawl up in my bed and cry ='[
And I don't even know why I would cry..

I feel so lost..
I need a new meaning..
When is that hand that's going to help me up ever going to come?
I need a light..
Please find me a light..
I can't be lost forever..

I wish there was a magic word, a potion, a spell..
A cookie, a drink, something
Something that can make me understand all this..

I know understand why your first break-up is the worst..
You're just not used to all these feelings and things going on..
You just don't know what to do..

Still I wonder if I'd be better at it a second time..
Probably not..