Up, down, Up Down..
Geez it's like we're on a freaking rollercoaster..
I'm just sick of him constantly critisizing me, or saying he's done it better then me, or worse.
Why can't he just sometimes say that something sucks for me?
Or that I did something good?
I'm not searching for his aproval or compassion.
It would just be very nice to get back what you give.
I'm just sick of him constantly critisizing me, or saying he's done it better then me, or worse.
Why can't he just sometimes say that something sucks for me?
Or that I did something good?
I'm not searching for his aproval or compassion.
It would just be very nice to get back what you give.
Everything I say to him is nonsense..
If he'd only knew how much he hurts me sometimes..
With the littlest things..
Not that he'd understand it if he knew..
Not that he'd understand it if he knew..
Dammit.. And there's absolutly no selution to this.
Which makes it even more frustrating!!
My dear, I hope you'll sometime realise that a friendship is a useless friendship if you're not getting anything in return. If you keep giving him everything you'd want him to give you, you can keep waiting till he gets it and finally gives you the friendly appreciation that you need, want and deserve, or you could eventually just quit because you are not meant to be his little compliment-machine. Please don't become his shoulder to lean on if you're going to be dissapointed at some time when you maybe need him! <3
ReplyDeleteI know that.. I just can't seem to let go that last part of him. I don't mind giving him compliments, I like it when he talks so proudly (In a not I-so-fancy-him-way) I like talking to him, because it makes me laugh sometimes how ignorant he can be. And it makes me smile to have pointless arguments with him about stupid stuff like who said what the first or fight against each others opinions. It's what we do, we always did that.
ReplyDeleteIt's just frustrating.. And I don't have the right to say something about it, and I don't expect anything else from him, cause he's sortof always been like this.
Sometimes I just need to WRAAAARWWRHRHGGHGHRH somewhere about it xD
I don't expect anything from him. And I hope one day, I will have the strenght to say goodbye to him, forever. But that moment is just not now, I can't do that just yet.
I'll be okay. I know I will ;) He's gotten me down once, and I won't let it happen twice.