Happy News, Sad News, Jerky News and Terrible News..

Happy news Happy news! =D

Today's the day that A Dreamy Journal is 6 months old!
Hooray! Hooray!
*pretends to blow out a candle*
And I'm sure loads of months will follow!

Sad news..
I'm single again for a whole week now..
And I haven't liked it for a single minute..
And I'm more confused than I was in the beginning.. 

I don't like being single! I don't want to be alone!

I need the attention of a male..
I'm getting to much attention from female-friends..
I need a male.. That's it..
Attention from them is different..
I don't care what their intentions are I just want their attention!
It's not like they'll get me anyway...

Today I talked to this boy that was in my class aswell.. Just like "him".. 

We talked a lot in class, had fun.. And today he started talking to me on MSN, asked me if I broke up with "him".. 

I told him we broke up and he laughed..
He just laughed!

Said it was hilarious!
DAMN I FELT LIKE GIVING HIM A DAMN GOOD HIT IN THE FACE!

He expected us to break-up in the first place, and he already laughed at the idea of us together..

MADE ME WANNA HIT HIM MORE!

I loved "him".. Wasn't that important? For me it was..
It really hurt my feelings that he laughed about the fact we broke-up..
How can you laugh at that?
Aren't I hurt enough already?
How much a jerk can you be for laughing at a girl who just broke-up with a boy she loved with all her heart?

He ruined my day.. 

A whole week without him.. Without saying a single word to him.. Without hearing his voice.. Without seeing him..

It still hurts.. It does it really does..

It's so hard getting over him =[
I'm not liking this at all, not a single bit!

I don't want him out of my life, I don't want to lose him..
Everything in me is fighting against this..
But still I have to force myself to get over him..
I have to break me,
I have to break my own soul to get better..

But how do you break yourself?
Can you break yourself?
How can you hurt yourself to get better?
How can you lie to yourself to go on with your life?

How do you get over someone you still love..

How do you kill love..?