Obvious

Three weeks already..
Still not used to this being single thing..
Still not a “Happy Single”

 

I wonder if he ever thinks of me..
I wonder if he has those sudden memories when he sees things to..
I wonder if he wonders if I’m okay..

I wonder how he feels about all this..

I’m really confused about all this..
Really.. I don’t know anymore..

I don’t know what I want, I don’t know what I need..

And that’s bad cause if I don’t know I can’t get better!
I need to meet new people..
I need to flirt, I need to get out there..
I need to go to places.. That’s what I think I need..

But I don’t know anything specific that I need..

Gosh.. I wish everything would be just obvious..

I really wonder how he is..
But I think that if I’d ask him he’ll just say he’s tired but okay..
The answer I always used to get..
I don’t think he’d tell me how he really is..

But then again.. Why would he tell me the truth?
I know I deserve the truth..
But what’s in for him telling me the truth?
A clean conscious? He doesn’t give a shit about that..

 

I wish he’d just be obvious to..