It's just SO not fair..

It's not fair..

It's just SO not fair..

How come he's going on with his life like nothing ever happened?

But I'm stuck with all the shit feeling and the problems..

Every smile I smile is a half one.

When I finally was a complete puzzle he took that finishing piece away from me again.

Why am I stuck with this unjustified feeling?

It's so not fair! It's just so not fair!

I don't deserve this!

What did I ever do in my life to feel like this?

Why can't I just ever have a normal friend? A normal relationship?

Why do I always have to walk the hard way.

Will this ever stop?

Maybe I should just delete everything I have from him..
So I can't get in temptation to look at it when I need it..
Delete him from my contacts in MSN
Delete him from my phone
Delete his texts
Delete his E-mails
Delete his pictures
Hide his necklace where I'll forget I placed it
Get rid of everyhting that has a memory of him..
Everything..
If I could choose I'd totally redecorate my complete room, just so I won't have any memories of him in my room..

I want to delete him from my life.
Forget he ever excisted
I want to forget him and this..
I just can't have it anymore..
I don't want this..
I feel so unjustified =[
It feels so unfair..
I don't understand it..
I still don't understand it..
And then he seems absolutely fine!
IT'S JUST SO FUCKING UNFAIR!